I have absolutely no idea what I've consumed in the span of yesterday that triggered off a most insane allergy in me. It was about 9pm at night and I was chatting on MSN and trying to write my Chinese essay at the same time. All of a sudden, both my eyes began to hurt and itch like mad. I tried not to rub, but I couldn't help succumbing to the itchiness a couple of times. And voila! The eyelid of my left eye began swelling to about three times its normal size and the skin surrounding my right eye (about radius 1-1.5cm) began to swell up as well. My left eye was so swollen, I could only open it to about half its normal size. My right eye looked like it was encircled by a huge patch of swollen skin (that sounds.. weird). In short, I looked totally hideous last night.

To add on to that, I suddenly sneezed and couldn't stop. I sneezed 5 times consecutively in a row. Then my nose got blocked and ta-dah! I got runny nose. Throughout the whole night, a box of tissue stayed faithfully by my side.

I went to the doctor this morning. There was a long queue and I took a number. I rotted away at the clinic, reading John Grisham's "The Runaway Jury" until my number flashed over the sign above the doctor's door.

So yes, I knocked and went in. This doctor is one of the nicest doctors I've ever met in my entire life. He's very friendly, always smiling and chats with you as he diagnoses your illness. So I told him about my crazy allergy and he was really concerned. I gave him a quizzical look. He said that my case of allergy is really serious and dangerous. I stared at him. He said I should have gone to the doctor immediately last night. I said it was late and he said "A & E". Haha. All I could do was just smile weakly. Then he explained, "First stage, your eye swells. Second stage, you get runny nose. Next, you will be having difficulty breathing."

My goodness, I never realised the severeness of my allergy. I thought it was just something minor. And to think I even experimented with the food in my house to try to find out what has caused my allergy. *gulps*

Anyway, enough about my allergy. Connie has tagged me and I'm supposed to do this... er.. quiz-like thingy. So here it goes.

Instructions: The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.

Gender: Male (obviously)
1. He should be loving, kind and caring.
2. Be able to understand and put up with me (crazy moodswings come as a package)
3. Be able to be himself when he's with me.
4. Be able to appreciate good music. (being able to play a musical instrument is a bonus. Piano, violin and flute totally melt my bones away)
5. Humourous, yet thoughtful.
6. Faithful and honest.
7. Of average height (not too tall, nor too short)
8. Sweet

I'm not going to tag anyone. Just do it if you want to. :) And now, I have really got to go and start on my homework, which my tutors are dishing out by the gazillions.

I am...

SO TIRED. I was dozing off during Econs and Bio tutorial today. My eyelids seemed to be having some difficulty defying gravity. And the usual: loads, and loads, and loads, and loads, and loads, and loads... ... ... of homework and tutorials.

We played tug-of-war today for the Inter-house Games. Or rather it was intra-house today. I bought my Phobos t-shirt and it looked like a big, humongous, gigantic monstrosity on me. The XS and S sizes were all out of stock. So, I had to buy an M size t-shirt. The hem of the t-shirt fell to just a few inches short of my knees. It looked more like a night gown on me. Seriously, it is that huge.

So yes, we played tug-of-war, and lost. It was my first time playing it. My hands felt so painful and raw after the game. Like, really, ouch?

And guess what? I've picked up a 2nd CCA. A recreational CCA. STRING ENSEMBLE!! This guy called Kenneth just started it. He's recruiting members now. The only thing I'm afraid of is that I've just killed myself taking up two aesthetics CCA. Thank goodness String Ensemble is recreational, though there still will be performances and all. But, it's gonna be taxing. (Something doesn't sound right. Sentence structure? =/) Ah wells, the sacrifices people make for music.

//I can't say I'm not upset.. but I will try..//

Masquerade.. Paper faces on parade.. Masquerade.. Hide your face so the world will never find you..

Look beyond the facade. Nothing is really as it seems.

And they say us girls nag more than guys...

Haha! Alright, today was the first day we followed our new time-table (lectures, tutorials and all). Our new time-table is nuts. Seriously. Look at the insane times at which I end lessons.

Mon - 5.05pm
Tue - 5.05pm
Wed - CCA
Thur - 4.15pm
Fri - 12.05pm (then CCA)

And that's just when lessons end, there're of course other activities such as meetings and blah. I've got so much friggin' tutorials to do over the weekend. Argh!

Today I accompanied Adam to TJ cos he wanted to speak to the PE department about some cheerleading competition. Then when we reached the hawker centre outside TJ, we met CL. Then we went into the hawker centre and Adam had some Ice Kachang to cool himself down. After that he went to Parkway with his friends and CL had to return to school for Chemistry Practical at 1.45pm. I got pang seh-ed T.T Haha, so then I called up Xinyan and asked if she wanted to go study with me. It was so coincidental that she was right outside the hawker centre too!

So the three of us stood there and chatted outside the hawker centre. It's so cool la, all three different uniforms. CL in the dark green TJ uniform, Xinyan in the light green TPJC uniform and me in the light blue MJ uniform. Then CL tried to get me to eat, but I didn't felt like it, until I saw Xinyan, then I suddenly had the urge to eat ice cream. So CL dumped some money into my file in what seemed to be a discreet manner, but still I noticed. So I tried to pry the money out and then he ran off. So I gave chase instinctively. And the heads turned.

Oh my goodness, so pai seh. Xinyan was standing there and laughing as she watched us run around outside the hawker centre. Absolutely mortifying! And Marcus was saying "JC Students Turned Kids". Riight.

More incessant naggings..

I have dieded. Yes, dieded. I have lost count of the number of rehearsals I've had for the Ministers' visit to our school. I left school at 7pm today. I ache all over and my bruises from that mortifying fall yesterday have turned a nasty shade of purplish blue. It looks really disgusting and hurts a great deal.

I'm in CO! Again. Haha. I wish there were a string ensemble though. I would most definitely join that without much hestitation. I would love to play my violin again. Fumbling with stupid piano scales now. I wish I had a bigger hand so I could play those octave-apart notes. It's really frustrating.

Sometimes I really wonder if I had made the right choice taking the subject combination I currently am studying. I guess in MJC, I don't have a choice in Math, cos it's compulsory for all Science students. And as for Chem.. It comes as a package with Biology and I love Biology. Sigh. I'm lagging behind in Chem and Math. Again.

I was just browsing through Mr Ng's webpage and OH MY GOODNESS, I MISS TPJC!! I miss all the teachers and my friends! I miss 06S07! Mr Kevin Ng was my Civics Tutor by the way, and he's a really great teacher! :)

-uoy ssim I-

Okay, due to more incessant naggings from a certain someone (I'm not saying who. Oh but I think you know him.. *cackles*), I shall once more update. Haha.

I AM SO EXHAUSTED!! Life in MJC is... tiring, stressful, fast-paced and yes, it's only the first week of school (proper school, as in lectures and all) Zzz... I am so sleep-deprived. I need to sleep more. I was dozing off during PW lecture today.

Something extremely unglamourous happened to me in school today. I tripped and fell down. Right outside the toilet and straight into a puddle of water. I scraped both my knees and bruised my elbow. Everything hurts like shit now. And I fell down in a most unglamourous manner, right in front of See Hui and Rachel. It was most embarrassing.

You see, I was walking out of the toilet. There was a slight level at the door. I tripped against that, lost my balance, flailed my arms awkwardly around (cos I was carrying a stack of notes). And finally after a few seconds of harsh battle, trying to regain my balance, I lost miserably and ended up on the floor. Ta-dah! And that, was how I fell down.

This is a very lovely, sad and touching song. A few seconds into it and my full attention was ensnared. Em, Talz, I know why you guys melted. I did too. :)

To Where You Are - Josh Groban

Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be (?)
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are mine
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

Ok, due to someone's... *cough*marcus*cough* incessant naggings, I shall update my blog. Haha.

In a mere blink of an eye, the March holidays are soon to be over. How unfortunate. Seriously, why do good times fly and bad times crawl?

On Wednesday, we (Emily, Florence, Marcus, Chuan Li and I) went to Talz's house to have a movie marathorn. We ended up watching only two movies cos the player was kind of stuck at times. Emily rented Dear Frankie, which we watched first, and I brought along Pride & Prejudice, we watched that too. Dear Frankie was a really sweet movie, however the ending, I must say, wasn't quite what I had expected. It was a good ending though, just not what I had in mind.

Pride & Prejudice. Well, what can I say? I love that movie! I've watched it about 5 times. The language is absolutely beautiful.

School is starting. I can't say I'm very happy about that. All the lectures and tutorials... *grumbles* I have a very bad feeling I'm gonna lag behind in Chemistry and Mathematics. =(

//Life's not taking a very nice turn for me.//

Apologies people, for not blogging for some time. Orientation totally wiped out me. Speaking of which, it had been a fun week of orientation at MJC! We did mass dance on Tuesday. Couple dance rocks, I tell you! I am SO addicted to it. Then on Wednesday we played CSI: Meridian. Which basically gets you familiarized with the school building. Thursday was MMM at Sentosa, which was thoroughly exhausting but not a bit less fun. Friday's wet games were really, well, wet. Seriously, I was throughly drenched and dripping wet. Campfire was smashing and I went kind of nuts. Screaming, jumping, dancing and what not.

MJ's Library is cool! We can borrow up to 6 books and a CD. I borrowed Julie Garwood's Heartbreaker which is sooo good it was almost the death of me and Talz, as I was telling her about the heart-melting ending which nearly had us swooning and hyperventilating. I just couldn't stop smiling because the previously cold, detached, even cynical Nick Buchanan (FBI agent) was so unbelievably sweet. Just one of my favourite genre of novels: an intricate, lovely blend of thriller and romance.

It's about a psychopath serial killer who has targeted Laurant as his next victim. Her brother, Tommy, totally freaked out and hired his best friend, Nick Buchanan, FBI agent to protect her whilst investigations went on. And yup, they fell in love =D

IT'S THE MARCH HOLIDAYS! I'm happy. Heh. This one week break is most definitely my last chance to really slack for a long time to come. Yesterday, Marl, Marcus, Chuan and I went to East Coast Park. But it was too hot, we were baking there. In the end, we played pictionary sitting on one of the empty BBQ pits under the shade of a tree, before heading over to McDonalds for a late lunch.

I am suddenly at a loss of what to say. What an abrupt ending to this entry. Haha.

4R - I still miss you all so much.

Orientation Day 1 in Meridian Junior College

It was talks after talks. I sat on the hard parquet hall floor for hours in one sitting. My legs were put to slumber, in hibernation. After all the talks, I could barely pick myself up from the floor and walk properly. My poor poor legs.

There was no one I knew from my temporary group, D8. During the first break, I frantically scanned through the moving crowd for a glimpse of a familiar face. Then I caught sight of See Hui. I've never spoken to her before in Temasek. We smiled at each other and began talking. Soon, we were fast friends. She's a really nice girl, and extremely hardworking. About 10 times more hardworking than me. >.<

MJC Library is freakishly silent. Our footsteps, as we padded across the carpeted floor, sounded as loud as drum beats. It's hilarious really, come to think of it, as See Hui and I almost tip-toed up to the second level cos our footsteps sounded really loud. I almost lost all control and nearly erupted into spontaneous laughter on our way up. I almost had to stuff my hand into my mouth to stifle the escaping peals of laughter.

//Today.. It hit me hard in the face.. No, it smacked me right in the face, mercilessly.//

Today I went to Bugis with Tallie, Emily, Marliyana, Kenneth, Marcus, Hengky and Chuan Li. Looking at this bunch of names, you could tell it had been a trip full of funny, sick, disgusting and hilarious wisecracks.

We went to the National Libary. It was my first time there. I felt like a total 'sua gu', becos I've passed by that building soooo many frickin' times and I never knew that it was the National Library. Somebody shoot me.

So, yes, we went into the library, the basement, where the fiction books were. Did you know, the National Library has escalators? That's like, so cool! Marcus stared at me as I went on and on about the escalators. Kenneth began rambling about how escalators were just stairs that could move. Have I mentioned how beautiful and huge the National Library is? I felt like camping overnight there and never leave that place again. After everyone has finished selecting their books and borrowed them, we headed off to the nearest McDonalds.

Aha! This was where the most hilarious moments of the day occured. Everyone, all 8 of us, managed to squish onto this really lovely slightly longish table. Then we all ordered our food and began to eat. With Kenneth, Marcus and Chuan Li around, the conversation could never remain really sane. Somehow, everyone began telling jokes. Sick jokes, funny jokes, weird jokes, lame jokes. And I laughed so much la! My goodness.

Then we went to Bras Basah, then Kenneth and Emily bought some books, while the rest of us looked through the books there and Chuan Li rotted, perched on top of a railing. Next we went back to Bugis, Parco cos Tallie had to buy some earrings. We took a group picture there and then Chuan Li and I had to leave; he to cut his hair and me to my grandpa's new condo.

Yeah! Ris Grandeur is finally completed! My youngest sis and cousin were there swimming already. My family were looking at the apartments. It is seriously beautiful. The penthouse is really very very nice. 3 storeys, with an open roof terrace. Simply beautiful. Can you imagine? You could see the sun rise, the sun set and the moon and stars!! But of course, it's frickin' expensive. No, my grandpa didn't get the penthouse. Sadly.

After we left Ris Grandeur, we went for dinner at West Plaza food court. We ordered food from this stall and then this boy served us our food. As he was serving, I suddenly saw the words "Voyage II EXCO" on his black and red t-shirt. He turned around to serve the second dish. I blinked and stared at his t-shirt. Black and red, TJC t-shirt, SCIP EXCO. OH. MY. GOODNESS. I gaped at him. Then my family noticed and went "Your friend arh?" I shook my head. Then my sister asked me about it. I said "TJC". She stared at him too, then said "Oh ya, the t-shirt." Then the guy heard and looked at us. I couldn't stand it and blurted out "Are you from TJC?"
Him: Ya
Me: SCIP EXCO?
Him: Ya
Me: You know Chuan Li?
Him: Oh yes, Games IC.
My sister and I (simultaneously): OH MAN...

Then he smiled and went on to serve others. I was so shocked can?! Is the world so small?! It seems like I'm quite fated to meet TJ's scip exco people. Out of 8, I know 5 of them. One is my bf, one is my primary school friend, one is an old friend I knew in sec 1, one is my new friend's bf and one whom I met in the food court today. Oh man.. Then as I was about to leave the food court, I saw him again. We both smiled and then he beckoned me over with a motion of his hand. I went over and my curious 2nd sister tagged along behind.

Him: Are you Chuan Li's sister?
Me: No. What's your name?
Him: Sammuel. How are you related to him? Sister? Cousin?
Me: No, no, no.
My sister (who couldn't keep her mouth shut): Boyfriend
Him: ORH... (laughs)
Me (smacks her on the arm)

Then he went off to continue serving and we left the food court. It's such a small world isn't it? I wonder how many more shocking episodes will come my way. It's been four already so far. o_o

Today Ms Loh walked into the classroom and flipped through the econs test paper. Then she said the terrifying words "I think everyone failed." I stared at her. Oh my goodness... Then she began giving out the papers, but when she got to my script, she said "Oh, i forgot to total up your marks." Then she finished giving out the rest and began to total up my results.

I was looking at Wenqi's script. Then Ms Loh said something like "Oh wait, we have a pass here and topping the class too!" Hee~ I can't believe I topped the class for the econs test, with a score of 21/30. =)

Anyway, I checked my posting today. I got into Meridian Junior College. I felt sad leaving TPJC, really, I do. Today, I had 'brunch' with Wenqi, Elga and Young Chiang at a nearby hawker centre. Then when we were going to part, it was so sad.. I really didn't feel like leaving them at all.

I went home, mapled and slept. At 5pm, I went to Tampines Library to return some books, read for awhile there, met Christopher and his friends, then I left for home. While walking home from the bus stop, I suddenly felt very depressed, for reasons I wish not to divulge.

I was walking very slowly along the road. I felt like crying, but the tears won't come. I didn't feel like going home then. I passed my house and went on walking down the road aimlessly. Alone. The sky was clear and cloudless and a wonderful shade of blue. As I trudged along the lone path, hearing the crisp crunch of fallen dried leaves on the ground, I felt so.. empty.. so alone and so depressed. Why? Why do I feel like this?

As I walked on, the sky gradually turned from that beautiful blue to a darker shade of midnight blue.. and finally to black. My mind was a total blank as I continued to walk. The cresent moon stood out in sharp relief against the darkening evening skies. And I walked on...

Tomorrow is the day... Release of the posting results!!

Frankly, I don't exactly feel elated about getting out of TPJC and going into MJC. Maybe it's because I've spent two months there and I feel attached to the people there. I am going to miss all my friends so much and Mr Ng too! Mr Ng's like one of the nicest teachers I've ever met. Gosh, I'm really really gonna miss them all a lot. Ms Loh, Ms Chua, Chen Laoshi, they're all so nice! I hope the teachers at MJC are just as nice.

The start of next week signifies the proper beginning of JC school life at full speed (minus the orientation, that is). No more slacking, no more skipping lectures, no more ponning school, no more not doing tutorial homework, no more playing in class, no more fooling around, no more going home early. I'm really afraid I would die in MJC. I'm afraid I can't cope. God, give me strength.

Song Wei, thank you so much for that encouraging prayer last night. It touched my heart so much I almost cried. Thank you =)

Piggy: Hey.. Cheer up! In life, there're always tough decisions to make, not ones that we would enjoy making, often ones that put us in a dilemma, or maybe even life-changing ones. But often, decisions have to be made by yourself, alone. So slowly think through clearly, alright? Cheer up! =)

I didn't attend school today cos I woke up at 6.30am and felt like utter crap; My body was aching, my throat was sore and I had a really queer on-off stomachache. So I msged Wenqi and told her I wasn't coming to school today and promptly went back to bed.

I felt much better in the afternoon and went to Bugis with Wenqi, as discussed in school yesterday. Both of us needed to get boxes; she to contain the 99 straw hearts she made for... *cough*... and me to contain the 999 straw hearts CL made for me on Valentine's Day =)

But in the end, I couldn't find a box to my liking and that was cheap as well. We had lunch at Mos Burger and frankly, that was the first time I ever ate at Mos Burger. Their rice burgers were good and I love their vanilla shakes. But it made my stomach upset soon after.

There's chemistry practical tomorrow. We're gonna be doing heating. Zzz... Okay, that was SO random. Haha. Seriously, I think I'm gonna spontaneously self-combust if Friday doesn't arrive soon. I can't wait to know and really comfirm which JC I've entered. And I also wannt to know how much I'd scored for my Econs test. Hopefully I didn't fail it.

It's almost 11.30pm and I should be getting off the computer to do some reading before going to bed. Good night. Au revoir.